‘My Brain is Basically Like a Piece of Glass Now’

The last straw for Audrey Bellah’s brain came on March 8, 2012.

Traumatic Brain Injury - Audrey Bell Photography in the forest

Credit: Audrey Bellah Photography

Concussions on the soccer field in
middle school had left her brain far more fragile than anyone realized. The injury that turned her life upside-down came during a seemingly innocuous game of ultimate Frisbee on the campus of Auburn University, where she was studying radio, television and film.

Audrey accidentally collided with a friend, and her life took a 180-degree turn in a split-second. She awoke hours later in an emergency room.

The entire previous week was missing from her memory. In fact, she later discovered that she couldn’t recall sizable periods of her high school years. There was a migraine building in her head that would stay put for the next year.

Audrey, a straight-A student and one-time soccer standout, had lived an independent life in her own apartment and was making progress toward her dream of one day working for Disney.

“In an instant, it was ripped away,” she recently told the Brain Injury Law Center.

Not One Concussion – 10 Concussions

Audrey’s ordeal is rooted in the lack of awareness surrounding head injuries that still permeates athletic fields around the nation, from NFL stadiums to Little League diamonds. A change has been taking shape in recent years, thanks in large part to the well-publicized plight of pro football players.

Audrey suffered 10 concussions over a seven-year span. The first two came on the soccer field, where Audrey was a standout player who caught the eye of college recruiters. Soccer, she said, was the love of her life. That’s why a pair of concussions didn’t keep her from returning to the field.

“We didn’t think anything of it back then,” Audrey said.

Then came yet another concussion at age 15. This one was different.

 “That was the big one. That was when they told me I was not going to be able to play soccer again,” Audrey recalled.

These concussions left her brain in such a delicate state that a collision five years later during a Frisbee game — something that most of us would just brush off — sent her life into a downward spiral.

A Dark Place

After her 2012 concussion, Audrey lost her independence. She awoke each day with the same migraine that made it difficult for her to fall asleep every night.

Friends began to trickle away. They didn’t want to be with someone who was “disabled.” She knows now they were never true friends in the first place, but that doesn’t ease the emotional pain.

For Audrey, who had been making strides towards her ambitions, life had stopped in its tracks.

“You can see your friends and your family out there moving forward with their lives. You just feel like you’re stuck at a standstill,” she said.


When we spoke with Audrey, a cheery optimism was evident in her Southern drawl. But, despite the smiles, life is still far from normal for the 22-year-old.

Tweeting as @ConcussedProbs, Audrey alludes to the clouds that hang above her head:

 “I am in a very, very dark place right now…”

“Sometimes I need a big hug and a shoulder to cry on.”

The support she has found on the Internet, Audrey Bell_BILC ebookshe said, is a “relief.” It’s not easy to find people in your daily life to connect with about an injury that is invisible. But, with the right hashtag or the right group online, understanding comes immediately.

Audrey has taken to a longtime passion, photography, to illustrate how her life has changed since her injury. Supplemented with text that tells her story, a slideshow piece called “Life With a Traumatic Brain Injury” began one day when the ticking clock on Auburn University’s bell tower felt all too symbolic for her, she explained.

Back to Auburn

Audrey is about to resume her studies at Auburn University for the first time since that fateful game of Frisbee more than two years ago. She still has headaches, but her ambitions and dreams are returning to the spaces that housed only mental pain.

Audrey knows the hardest times are behind her.

“I think…”

She pauses.

“I know I’m going to be fine.”

photo credit: Audrey Bellah


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